we all get a little personal

i legit am about to throw my laptop on the floor…

i’m done with everyone. like honestly, i’m so sicken over the fact that you have no care in the world for me anymore. HI I WAS THE ONLY ONE THERE FOR YOU WHEN YOUR FRIENDS WALKED OUT ON YOU…. and now, you’re not friends with me but friends with them… alright. so much for the best friend you clammed to be. im honestly so sick of trying with you. i was the one that went to college and i STILL tried and put effort into our friendship. i don’t wanna hear an excuses… i almost failed, pledged AND STILL tried with you. don’t expect anything more from me….i’m so hurt. SO FUCKING HURT!bye.

wait…..and the other one…stay the fuck in korea. i honestly hope you die. like im not joking. i every time i hear that stupid somebody that i used to know song, i think of you. and i don’t know how to handle it. everything comes back from the “love” to the abuse to the pain of waiting for you which turned out to be nothing. i seriously just wanna see you so i can slap you across the face. october can’t come any sooner. yeah… haha what are you gonna do when you come home since im good friends with your best friend?!? hahaha are you gonna tell me all the shit you messaged me to my face?! are you gonna tell me how you could never trust me when you were the one who fucked it all up? OH WAIT or are you gonna try and make it like “old times” like you said you wanted? what are you gonna do??? WAIT… i know you, you’ll lie to everyone and say you saw me like you did when you first came home.

you’re the biggest mind fuck in the whole world. i’m in a relationship WITH SOMEONE else and you are doing this shit to me. you’re acting just like how you told me you don’t wanna be because of your parents. i honestly was over it all and wanted to be your friend since you are gone and in the marines and i didn’t want the last time we talked to be either a fight if anything happened to you. but now, i don’t know what i want. i just want this to be done with.